What do you wanna be?

I've been asked many times if I'm doing what I intended to do. Do I intend to be in legal practice for years? Do I intend to have my own firm? Do I intend to be an expert in my field? What drives me at work? And again recently, I was asked the same question.

The answer to that, to the disappointment of my enquirers, is I don't know. However, certainly, I do not intend to practice forever. Perhaps, to join the United Nations. Even so, I don't know how. Certainly not to have my own firm. If I wasn't interested in practice, why would I want my own firm? That would be like paying to torture myself.

Someone else once told me that the problem with our profession is that too many people know how to do our job. Toss a coin somewhere in the middle of town and there is a 99% chance that it will hit someone in my profession. That, I'll have to agree with.

Usually, I'll say that I'm still learning and trying to gain experience. The day I do not have to consult someone before making a decision on a file is the day I know I've got enough 'experience' in my field. My field. I don't even know what field that is yet. But I was just thinking, how would I be sure that by a certain time, I would have gained the experience I need? How would I know if it's going to be one year, two years or seven years? What drives me to improve my working skills?

A friend shared this passage with me in 2 Peter 1:3-11 :

2 Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord, 3as His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us by glory and virtue, 4by which have been given to us exceedingly great and precious promises, that through these you may be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust. 5But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, 6to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, 7to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love. 8For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

9For he who lacks these things is shortsighted, even to blindness, and has forgotten that he was cleansed from his old sins. 10Therefore, brethren, be even more diligent to make your call and election sure, for if you do these things you will never stumble; 11for so an entrance will be supplied to you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

I thought about this passage the whole week last week. It really inspired me. God has already given us all things that pertain to life and godliness. All things. Not some things, but all things.

Wow....

So, it's not work that I should be focused on, but the knowledge of and relationship with God. When I have this relationship, all things will fall in the right place. I already know this in my head. Now it's just trying to get my flesh and heart to conform.

All things.......