Inactive Person

I've been labeled as "inactive" for obvious reasons. So, although it's way past my bedtime, I promised my friends that I will update my blog because they are sick and tired of seeing the same page again and again. I take all the blame and liabilities for not updating my blog. It has been so long I didn't even know they came up with a newer version.

January is usually the time I take to think about the past year, the ups and downs, how God has blessed me and start being thankful for what I have and the people I love. *It is also the time I eliminate people who are not important in my life... hehe.. kidding* But seriously, it's the time I evaluate people around me. NOT how important they are or not, but whether I've taken the effort and time to care for them and whether I've grown any closer to them.

My darling church friends came all the way to visit me tonight. That says tonnes about my relationship with them. That also made me realize that I love them so much more than I thought I did. I thought to myself, where else would I find such wonderful church family. It's true. That's the same question I've been asking since the end of last year. Questions about whether I've cared enough for my church family and whether I've neglected them unknowingly.

I have been thinking about moving on to another ministry. Spoke to the relevant people, shared with close friends, asked myself tonnes of questions. I was wondering and praying about whether I'm still called to be in the cell ministry or should I concentrate more on the Worship Ministry. But God is good and He shut doors where He didn't want me to go. There was a lot of passiveness which frustrated me a lot of times but on hindsight, He was leading me somewhere. At the moment, I'm still staying put, still thinking, still praying. I'm more confident that God will lead me in His own time, so I worry less and I wonder less nowadays.

Last year was full of things I don't want to talk about, but God reminded me of some great things too. Changing jobs, working together with incredibly talented people on the church musical, working together as a cell for Christmas (I enjoyed the gift making more than the acting), how God carried me all the way to Penang and back and how He was with me all along and helped me find favour with people, retreats with cell friends, getting to know some people a bit more and caring about them more. I also started to observe people and is more appreciative of their God given talents and different characters.

I do think this year, there'll be more exciting stuff to expect. God will do great things in us and it's for us to just expect the unexpected, as it always is with Him.

May I be taken off the "inactive list" now?